Week 36: Disappointment Ensues

I knew it would happen sooner or later. But I didn't expect it after a week of trying so hard.

My weight this morning was the same as last week's. 208. Zero pounds lost.

I'm trying really hard to not be discouraged. I've come so far already, I can't give up. I've lost thirty stinking pounds. I don't wanna throw that away.

But this week, I got up even earlier each morning to exercise with my friend, and I felt like our workouts were harder and more intense than last week. We actually incorporated jogging this week. Jogging. At 6 AM. Me!

I felt like that would really show up on the scale. And it didn't.

I know, I know. At least I didn't gain. And I'm probably losing inches. Or gaining muscle. Or all of the above. Plus, I had a higher than usual weigh-in last week (-3 lbs!), and that usually means a sucky follow-up weigh-in.

So, everything's not lost.

Well, of course that made me think of Coldplay.

And with Coldplay come positive thoughts. Especially since today, after my disappointing weigh-in, I turned to my acoustic guitar and sounded out "Yellow", a feat I've been attempting for I don't know how long. I've been trying unsuccessfully to figure out this one blasted chord in the chorus. Today I got it. I can play one of my favorite songs now. I know, no one cares that I can finally play what's considered an easy tune for beginner guitarists, but whatever. It brought a yellow ray of happiness into my sad little morning.

I am excited to admit my guitar skills are better. I'm learning lots of new songs, from an array of artists and genres. Johnny Cash. Mat Kearney. Adele. Randy Travis. Rihanna. ('Fraid so.) My finger calluses are back in business. One of my goals for 2012 was to practice guitar at least once a week. I've been doing it at least three times a week. And I'm just happy to see some improvement at last.

In other news, I started a new job this week.

Thursday was orientation. I'll be providing one-on-one client care for an in-home assisted living company. In addition to in-home services, they also send caregivers to sit with clients when they are being hospitalized and have no family to keep them company. Tonight, I'm working my first shift doing just that. It's third shift, 8 PM to 8 AM, which I have never done before. And I'm more than a little worried about that, because lately I've been in bed before 10. 


We'll see how that goes. I'm afraid I'll have to turn to caffeine and sugar to get me through it, once again trashing my system after I've kept it clean these past few months.

*weary sigh*

Really sorry about the mopey-iness in this post. Really. I just hope next week is better.


Autumn said...

I know you haven't lost weight recently, but I have read a few posts and looked at your before/after photos and you have a lot to be proud about. Keep up the good work!

Jenny said...

Thank you so much for reading and commenting! Your encouragement means so much!